Recently my Pastor preached a sermon that hit home. It spoke to my heart and put the task of soul-winning into a new light. He talked about Michal and Hannah and about their states of childlessness. I'm not going to go into as great a detail as he did but I would like to share a little bit of what the Lord showed me that night.
In reference to Hannah, if you know the story then you know that she was barren (couldn't have any children) and that that was causing her great pain in her life (I Samuel 1). I wrote recently about how much I desire a child of my own womb to hold in my arms. How sometimes the pain from my empty arms feels like more than I can bare. I sometimes feel as if I almost know what Hannah felt like. It is that desire of my heart that made this sermon hit home. As deeply and passionatly I desire a child of my own, I ought to feel the SAME WAY when it comes to bearing "Spiritual" children. (From many differant passages in the Bible we can gather that "Spiritual" children are the ones that we have personally led to Christ through Salvation. "For though ye have ten thousand instructors in Christ, yet have ye not many fathers: for in Christ Jesus I have begotten you through the gospel." (I Corinthians 4:15) "Unto Timothy, my own son in the faith..." ( I Timothy 1:2a) ). Does my Spirit crave "Spritual" children the way my body craves "natural" children? Do I daydream about it? Spend time preparing for it? Seek it? At the same time as my heart is crying out "Where are my children?" so ought my Spirit to be crying out, "Where are my children?"!!! As Rachel cried to Jacob "Give me children, or else I die." so ought I to cry out to God for "...more are the children of the desolate than the children of the married wife, saith the LORD." (Isaiah 54:1b). I want, when I get to Heaven, my Spiritual arms to be full of children to present before the Lord! Yes, I still desire to bare children but now I'm trying to learn how to direct that same desire into my Spiritual life and my "job" of leading lost souls to Christ.
With Prayers and Tears,
Sarah
"He maketh the barren woman to keep house, and to be a joyful mother of children. Praise ye the LORD." (Psalm 113:9)
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