Sarah's Heart

Well....here it is October. I worked so hard to get an August in and then completely missed September! lol! I've been thinking and thinking and praying and praying but I just didn't know what topic to blog about. Everytime I got an idea it would fall through one way or another. There is so much going on right now. You know the saying, "when it rains it pours"? Kinda feels like that. Now all that is going on around me doesn't concern me. Sometimes it just concerns my friends. But when someone you care about is going through a rought time it still weighs on you too. My sister is going through a really nasty situation...a friend of mine is going through an adoption that's been up and down...another friend of mine is pregnant and in the process of losing her mom to cancer(which makes my struggles feel silly and petty!)...another friend of mine who is pregnant is having some health issues...the plant where my dad works is closing next spring...a good friend of mine might be moving out of town soon...so much sickness going around right now...the lady I clean for is currently not doing well health wise and is in a nusring home and all I can think about is how to witness to her...Satan is fighting hard at church...then of course there's the ever present $ and government worries. And I'm sure I can think up some more, right? I'm not complaining though. With all of the topics I thought of to blog about I decided instead to take all of my "overwhelmedness" (just made up a new word! lol!) and then show all that the Lord is reminding me through it.
   He is reminding me first of all of His amazing love. I don't know what I would do without it. I couldn't do without it! Even when I'm struggling and allowing everything around me to overwhelm me, He is right there gently reminding me that He does have everything under control and will take care of it if I'll just let Him. Then I am constantly reminded to forgive. Circumstances that I didn't share are kinda rought right now....and it's easy to take up a grudge when I just get sick of it all. But then there's the Lord again, reminding me that I'm not doing any good by holding on to any bitterness against this person...or that person...that it'll only hinder MY walk with Him. (BTW, that was one of my topic ideas. Bitterness/Forgivness. I'm convinced that this is a bigger issue than most Christians realize and if we'll just take a serious look and forgive the ones we need to forgive, for whatever reason, then we would be so much closer to the Lord and our walk would be so much sweeter! Anyway...back to topic.) He's also reminding me the importance of prayer. Which, I have been so overwhelmed that I've allowed it all to stunt my prayer life. Reminded me how much I can do for a friend just in prayer. Along with that He's reminded me that prayer really sometimes is all I can do and not to stress and struggle trying to figure out what "Sarah" can do instead of letting God do His job. 
   So yeah...He's been talking to me about alot these last couple of days and last night I finally took it all to Him and just fell asleep in His arms. If only I would do that every night....The peace was so sweet.
    I don't know how much of this was coherent and how much just sounded like me rambling on and on...but hopefully there is something here that the Lord can use to help you out today. To remind you to trust Him with all of life's messiness. Have a blessed day with Jesus!

With Prayers,
   Sarah